life is short//love is forever.

I just want to talk-sorry i have no photos to add

2011-07-19T12:37:00.001-07:00

Things have been super busy the past few weeks!
Leevi and I moved in to our very first house together.
Renting just for now.
It's nice living with a man.
He makes me feel safe.
I am adjusting well to being a step-mom.
Kalen is 5, and a handful, but i wouldn't have it any other way.
We have a three bedroom home.
It's coming together quite nicely.
The mingling of our things works well.
I am so very proud of it!

Work is wonderful.
I have the BEST boss and coworkers I could have ever imagined!
I love the things I'm learning and can't wait to learn more!

Wedding plannig isn't really progressing!
Which makes me nervous but i know it will all come together :)
My Dad has been a super big help with it all.
Makes my heart smile to know how much it means to him to help.

The only terrible thing I can say about my life right now is about a falling out.
I don't have to go into detail, but my sister, and Matron of Honor, has removed herself from my wedding. Things have been said publicly that she can never take back. And all of it happened so fast. Her and I always butt heads but this time I'm not sure I can forgive her. My heart breaks for the way things have turned out.
It's all silly, really.

My other sister, Mehle, threw me one heck of a bachelorette party this weekend.
I had a blast having all my girls there with me.
Laughing and having a really good time.
I am thankful for thier support!!

That's all for now!!

And so it seems

2011-06-02T08:15:00.001-07:00

Open Letters part Deux-Hurting

2011-05-31T12:04:00.000-07:00

Just to let some stuff off my chest.
Started here.

Dear who ever's idea it was to grow up,
I don't like all this change. It stresses me out. Please work with me.
Sincerely,
The girl whose heart is hurting.

Dear Mehle,
Why do you have to be so mean to me??
Sincerely,
Your little sister

Dear Work,
Thank you for being the only non-stressful thing in my life right now. And thank you for letting me come here to escape the stress.
Sincerely,
Your employee.

Dear Jack Jack,
I love you always. You're my little kitty baby. I'm so sorry I have to give you away. My heart is broken.
Love,
Mommy

What's YOUR number, eh?

2011-05-25T12:06:00.000-07:00

Ever feel as though you've got SO MUCH TO DO that you're head will actually just.....roll OFF your body??
I'm sure I'm not alone in this :)
Today is Wednesday, May 25.
Currently 122 days until our wedding!
6 days to find a home to move in to together (EEEK)
3 days until a surprise mini photo session with my sweet Tara.
(check her out here and here)
16 days until I receive my BEST ETSY PURCHASE EVER!
14 days until my lovebug's 32nd birthday!

Things are coming at me pretty quickly. All very exciting! I just hope I can keep it all together and not go insane, you know what I mean??
Whose idea was it to plan a wedding and move at the same time, huh?
Let's blame it on Leevi! :)

Currently working on our wedding tree, as well. If you haven't heard of it before, it's to take the place of a guestbook. I'll draw out the tree and the guests at the wedding will "leaf" their thumbprints in different colors of greens. This was my second draft of the tree. The first was on canvas with acrylic paint. It was too large and scary looking. This one is oil pastels and much more to my liking! I've just got to make it about four times this size:

Happy Thoughts!

2011-04-07T07:48:00.001-07:00

Hi there! I am terrible at updating my blog!! So much has been happening as of late! Leevi and I have found a place for our wedding. It's on a horse ranch here in Wichita Falls. Pretty rustic! But exactly what we were looking for! And the absolute best thing is that I saved about $1,200 dollars with this place rather than the other we had looked at!! Oh yeah!! (this is my drawing of the barn!! haha. I am the next Picaso, so watch out!!)

It's pretty weathered. This is the side of the barn we will have the ceremony on. The lovely yellow squares are hay bales where guests will sit. Then we will walk around to the other side and enther through the other huge door for the reception :)

I have also dicovered you can have a "Honey Fun Registry" That's where instead of wedding guests bringing you a blender....they can log into your personal account and put money towards a fabulous honeymoon! How neat, right??

We also got to get our engagement pictures done recently! We drove to Oklahoma City and met my Aunt B, who is a photographer, and had a really great time. Below is my favorite picture!

What a blast!! Wish we could have stayed in Bricktown a bit longer but....time flies!! I also have plans to go to my Dad's house pretty soon. He has a little wood shop that he makes furniture in and we're going to get to work on some personal touches for the wedding! So excited to be doing this with my Dad!

Anyways!! Have a lovely day and hope to post more frequently!

The CATCH-UP POST!!

2010-12-27T05:53:00.001-08:00

So much to tell you since I last BLOGGED!!

First off…..
I’m ENGAGED!!
That’s right….I’m going to be a bride!!
I will marry the love of my life on 09/24/2010.
We wanted October but I want an outside wedding so badly and we were not sure it would be optimal weather temperatures for that time of year, so I got as close as I could.
And I’m also weird about the date. We knew it would have to be a Saturday in September and I don’t like odd numbers so there was the 12th and the 24th.
My ring:

Leevi picked it out himself and I adore it!

I also participated in Mickey's ornament swap! I was paired up with the gorgeous Summer and here’s a few pics of what she sent me:
Because I LOVE owls SO MUCH!! My sweet little furry fella!

My perfect size coffee mug! To which I got a new coffe maker for ;) It really is a gigantic mug but it's the PERFECT amount for me :)

And my salt and pepper shakers!! How cute are these??!! And the best part is that I had some salt and pepper shakers but my kitty had knocked one of them into the trash and I was in need of a new set :) She couldn't have picked a better time to send these! I was so excited when I opened up my package!

Thank YOU SO MUCH Summer!! And a heartfelt CONGRATS on the baby news!! What an awesome blessing!!

I also received a sweet little "Thank You" from Mickey :) When she married her love I was blessed to be there and be part of all the magic! She sent me this :

Because I love all things floral and always wear headbands with a little something extra!

LOVE YOU MICKERZ :)

it's been awhile.....

2010-11-11T08:37:00.000-08:00

I can't say I've been too terribly busy....
Just terribly LAZY ;)

Work is also killing my spirits.
So i generally sulk about that!

Thought I would throw out some Thursday randomness:

When my sister and I moved apart she got custody of ALL CHRISTMAS decor because she has the bigger/nicer house. BOO.

When my kitty Jackson snuggles with me, it makes my heart smile.

I cannot wait to marry LEEVI. He is my shelter from the storm and I am so thankful God put him in my life.

I'm addicted to ROTEL+Velveeta. Can't.get.enough.

I look forward to casual days at work on Fridays.

I haven't dyed my hair since May of 09. That in itself is quite the accomplishment for me.

I'm horrible at keeping up with my finances. Horrible.

I drink from my water jug in the fridge.

I love all things with owls. They are special to me.

I already have a pretty good plan for my wedding :)

I found a quiet pretty place by a lake. I'd like to go out there with just a book and sit and read. Just thinking of that relaxes me!

I miss how close my friends and I used to be. Then everyone had to go and grow up.

I've never cooked a turkey before.

My favorite color to wear is black.

I want to lose weight. I've been walking in the evenings with a coworker....but I'd rather walk/jog/run by myself. I feel more confident that way. And i love to listen to music while exercising.

I would love to travel to Germany and meet my cousin's twins.

My Mom was an amazing woman. I should be so lucky to be half the person she was.

Things I love around my home

2010-10-01T09:07:00.001-07:00

This is part of my living room.

(My baby Jackson snuggled on the couch)

Close up of my print. I say it's me and my sisters.

My cross wall :)

Kitchen wall

I'm starting to collect these little guys :) My Mom LOVED owls so they mean a lot to me and my sisters.

It speaks for itself! haha

Found this print at the flea market. I adore it!

A gift from my darling friend Amber.

The hallway. (seriously need to build a bigger collection!)

I LOVE October :):):)

2010-10-01T08:05:00.000-07:00

(Gruesome info ahead....do not proceed if you have a weak stomach!)

Leevi and I have picked out what we are going to be for Halloween!
Mehle and I have a Halloween party every year and we try to stick with a theme.
Last year it was a masquerade party. The year before that it was Alice in wonderland.

This year, though......we WANT SCARY!!
So basically show up as something dead.

Leevi is going to be Jack the Ripper and I will be Mary Jane Kelly (his last KNOWN victim).

Here's some info I found on WIKI about him-

"As the murders were never solved, the legends surrounding them became a combination of genuine historical research, folklore, and pseudohistory. The term "ripperology" was coined to describe the study and analysis of the Ripper cases. There are now over one hundred theories about the Ripper's identity."

"Attacks ascribed to the Ripper typically involved female prostitutes from the slums whose throats were cut prior to abdominal mutilations. The removal of internal organs from at least three of the victims led to proposals that their killer possessed anatomical or surgical knowledge."

"Mainly because of the extraordinarily brutal character of the murders, and because of media treatment of the events, the public came increasingly to believe in a single serial killer known as Jack the Ripper."

"Kelly's gruesomely mutilated body was discovered lying on the bed in the single room where she lived at 13 Miller's Court, at 10:45 a.m. on Friday 9 November 1888. The throat had been severed down to the spine, and the abdomen virtually emptied of its organs. Kelly's body was eviscerated and her face hacked away, though only her heart was missing from the crime scene."

Kalen :)

2010-10-01T07:59:00.000-07:00

Here are some pictures I took of my boyfriend's little girl.
I think they turned out pretty cute :)
She is certainly a stinker!!

Kalen and my little brother Wade.
They are BEST FRIENDS!

In Rewind

2010-09-21T13:45:00.000-07:00

I feel like I'm going backwards this week!!
***GASP***
Monday and today have been crazy busy....I'm running around like a chicken with its head cut off but when i stop....breathe...and re-evaluate my PROGRESS....it doesn't seem to have gotten very far.
hmph.
So I'm pouting.
And dreaming of someplace beachy :)

oh yes :)

2010-09-13T11:39:00.000-07:00

I'm a LAZY blogger!

2010-09-10T09:27:00.000-07:00

Stealing a filler AGAIN :) Thanks, Lauren for letting us play along!

1. The strangest thing I've ever eaten- Squid.....i know...I'm boring!

2. I wouldn't be caught dead in-colored jeans. Do you know how much they would maginfy my not so magnificent parts? whew!

3. When I am 75 I will- be a fiesty old pink haired lady with too much jewelry.

4. If I had to be named after a place I would want to be named-London

5. My name is -"Lauren" - My Dad picked it- "Suanne" - A combination of my Grandma and Mom's middle names.

6. My all time favorite photo is- The last picture my sisters and I took with our Mom.

7. If I could afford it I would- pay off my student loans and go back to school!

I LOVE fill in the blank :)

2010-09-08T13:09:00.000-07:00

Found this and decided to play along :)

I love fill in the blank ANYTHING!!
It's from Leigh's Blog :)

{one} what was your first pet and how did you come up with its name?
My first pet was a yorkie named Queen Elizabeth. We called her Lizzy for short. She was the best little cuddle bug EVER :)
{two} do you like your ice crushed or cubed?
crushed!
{three} do you believe in love at first sight?
I believe in love period. So if you say "it was love at first sight" then I couldn't be more happy for you. It doesn't matter how you got the feeling...just that you have it...and it makes your heart smile.
{four} do you have any nicknames?
I have a few- Lo, L, Eskimo, Suanne, Sister. I answer to all of those. And my mean sister used to call me La-URINE...just because it was funny. I pormise I didn't have a bed wetting problem!!

{five} what movie do you never get tired of watching?
Wedding Date. Hook. Drop Dead Fred.

{six} how do you like your eggs cooked?
over medium :)

{seven} are you named after anyone in particular?
My middle name (Suanne) is my Grandma and my Momma's middle names put together.
{eight} what are three things that you would like to do that you haven’t done yet?
have a baby, travel the world, win the lottery-(ha! who WOULDN'T want to do that??)
{nine} what one thing always brightens your mood?
Making someone else smile always gets me.
{ten} what five things will you always find in your purse?
Wallet, Cell phone, cigs (ugh..i know), TRASH, and keys!

Play along!

how now brown cow

2010-09-02T13:09:00.000-07:00

This morning I was struggling with trying to find clothes for work.

Lately I'm feeling very discouraged by my appearance.

It's starting to alter my moods and make me feel less social.

I know I need to change my eating habits...exercise....generally change my entire lifestyle......

and I haven't done a thing about it.

So my question is WHY??

Why am I doing NOTHING to fix this problem?

I hate feeling like a cow.

And this morning I actually used the word "repulsive."

Leevi does love me just that way I am....and my goodness that feels amazing.

But I don't love me just the way I am.

I slept like an angel last night :)

2010-08-31T06:24:00.000-07:00

Mehle bought me this to-die-for bedding set and surprised me with it yesterday!
I'm in love with it!
She calls it "old lady" bedding....I disagree!
It's a brand from Target called Shabby Chic and I have eye-balled this particular set for awhile now :)
I love the patterns of this collection and the way it makes the room look clean and vintage :)
Here is a picture of my new bedding from the website (the pic I took with my camera phone DOES NOT do it justice)

uhm....i need....

2010-08-30T13:14:00.000-07:00

Some motivation, perhaps?
A nap?
I'll take both, actually.

I've hit that point. YOU KNOW-----
The point in the day when you realize that you won't be doing anymore work.....
It passed me up about 20 minutes ago.
Sheesh.

And I cannot fight through it.

I'm excited for this weekend ALREADY!
I'm driving about an hour away from home to meet up with my Best Friend from high school and hang with her and her little boy, Weston :)(see below!)

**How can you NOT smile when you see this**

Erin and I can usually sit for HOURS and hours and talk about nothing and everything.
It's a tradition of ours to eat fried okra and ranch dressing! In high school she practically lived with me and we were left to our own devices more often than not....so we would just pop some okra in the fry daddy and that would be our dinner!
And since her Mom's house was actually about 30 minutes from mine, we would make little fun roadtrips out of the drive back and forth. Always had the windows down and the music blaring! The spice girls were our go-to for smile inducing sing-along fun :)
And they still are!
I plan on bringing a spice girls cd and heading out on saturday afternoon!

Oh YEAH :)

Where did the time go?

2010-08-30T06:28:00.000-07:00

Sweet little Bella is one!!

It seems like she was just born yesterday.
Mehle and I headed to Oklahoma on Saturday for a fun filled day at the park!
We had presents galore and some delicious cake :)
But the BEST part was seeing everyone!
Here are a few pics from the party (sure to make you smile on this MONDAY morning)

[[I'm sorry they are not in order]]

Little Stinkerbell

Such a cute little outfit :)

Bella and her Momma (Brittney)

Awesome cake!

Getting hosed down!!

The reason she had to be hosed down!

Gorgeous girl!

Yummy!

Opening presents!

Bella and Brittney

Bella and her friend Addi

Bella and Uncle Cliff

My sister, Mehle

She was Dancing!

Cutest little face!

Lovely In Every Way

2010-08-27T06:59:00.000-07:00

I just had to share this link.
I have been day dreaming a lot here lately and googling images, ideas, and such for a wedding. (No I'm not engaged....but I still like to look!)
I have always wanted a simple wedding.
I don't want chandeliers, red carpet, or expensive....ANYTHING.
I want a backyard wedding.....
I want vintage table cloths, tea cups and saucers, mason jars to drink lemonade from, candles hanging from the trees, a floral BED SHEET hung as a back drop for pictures! <---and I've found a blog that shows me REAL weddings...just like what I want.
I am tickled to bits to keep up with this blog :)

I love the mixed patterns

The MASON JARS!! LOVE THEM!!

How fun are those colors? and the BOOTS-so cute

A night of music and dancing

Beautiful neutral colors

I love the way they hung the flowers in the tree

Happily Ever After

2010-08-26T06:21:00.000-07:00

Since my extended departure from my blog world I have experienced new things :)

First I'd like to tell you about him.
His name is Leevi, my Leevi :)
We had dated on and off for 3 years when we decided again in November to give it another try.
And I thank God every night that we did.

I think we dated for so long(the on and OFF part) because we had to learn to grow together. It's been quite a journey, but very worth it. This is my first grown up relationship! And it's the best part of me :)

....."Real love. Ridiculous, inconvenient, consuming, can't-live-without-each-other love."

I missed this!!

2010-08-25T13:19:00.000-07:00

Hey ya'll!!

Thought I could get back to my blog...poor thing has been severely neglected :(

Lots has happened since I quit writing...LIKE A YEAR AGO!!

I've moved into my own place!

Got myself a really great boy

Really great JOB.

And the future seems bright.

I'm a happy happy girl!

More to come soon......

I miss my buddy!!

2009-10-08T17:33:00.001-07:00

When I worked at MT's Restaurant with Marianne and Mickey we met a few airmen that stole our hearts :)

I would like to introduce to you Frantz.

He was my buddy.

The most unique and sweet guy I've met in quite some time.

We don't stay in touch quite like I'd like to, but he's always on my mind!

I hope you are doing well, wherever you are!!

I miss your smiling face :)

Come visit in Texas sometime soon!

I packed my TIARA!

2009-10-08T16:20:00.000-07:00

We are off!

Mehle and I are going to Gladewater this weekend for Jayde's 5Th birthday!

It's a princess themed birthday party!

I can't believe how fast my little Tator Tot is growing up!

And we'll get some much needed sister time in :)

**the below pictures were from Mehle's Graduation...we went in for an over enthusiastic hug...we fell**

Open Letters:

2009-10-07T14:02:00.001-07:00

I think I'm going to try to post an "open letters" blog each week.
Just short little letters to whoever or whatever I need to say something to.

Dear Mehle,
I'm sorry I wore your new shoes. And I'm sorry that I haven't told you about it yet.
Love,
The shoe burglar

Dear Hair,
I don't like you. I liked you before I got you cut. Now you just look like a stupid football helmet on my head. Thanks allot. Now grow back out.
Love,
The fat head you lay on

Dear Dita Von Teese
You're so pretty. How do you do it?
Love,
The jealous girl

Dear Paycheck,
Please get bigger. Thank you.
Love,
The poor person who needs to live within her means.

Dear Weather
I like it when you have a slight chill. I like to bundle up.
Love,
The snuggler

Dear Yukon
I have neglected to get your oil changed for a couple weeks. I promise, though, that I will take care of you as soon as I can. Maybe you should talk to my paycheck about getting bigger. That would help allot.
Love,
Your terrible owner

Dear Cheese Soup
you, my friend, are delicious! (Rotel and Velveeta)
Love,
Your faithful fan

Dear Bella,
I miss you so much! And I miss your Mommy! Please come stay with me for awhile!
Love,
The one who squeezes you a little too much.

Honest to blog!

2009-10-07T13:47:00.001-07:00

Thanks to sweet Belen I have been tagged again :)
http://einahpetsneleb.blogspot.com/2009/10/honestly-tagged.html

This time, though, I'm going to try to dig out 10 things you don't know about me. I posted 10 random things back in July. Then got Tagged again by Marisa and answered the questions that were added .
So here is 10 MORE randoms :)

1. I like to eat salt and vinegar chips on pizza. (If this isn't the epitome of a fat girl I don't know what is)

2. I have a real anxiety about being late. Late to work. Late for a lunch date. I'm usually early. Sometimes so early that I'm waiting and getting mad. haha.

3. I have really bad bad bad heartburn. Yes, acid reflux. Like a ninety year old man.

4. I like to wear huge jewelry. I'm going to be the old woman hunched over as a result of years upon years of wearing jewelry that's entirely too big/heavy. (the necklace below is one I would like....if you feel the need to buy it for me then you should go right ahead)

5. Babies are my weakness. I want to hold every one of them. I really wouldn't mind staying in every weekend taking care of a baby....but I'm not ready for one yet. So right now I just love on everyone else's.

6. I'm growing my highlights out of my hair. I'm on this "get your hair healthy" kick right now and it's been since May since I've had it dyed. My hair is naturally a dirty blond so the color that I have in it isn't growing out too bad right now. It kind of all blends....I hope. Plus I chopped ALLOT off!

7. I have never lived alone. Since high school I have only lived with Sister. And I would like to be more independent but I'm not sure I have it in me. And I would miss her. We have special things that only we know about. And it just wouldn't be the same to live apart.

8. I love love love to watch scary movies....but I have a frickin nervous breakdown in a haunted house. I don't know what it is. We went to one last year and I almost passed out!! I walked through the whole thing with one arm FIRMLY around my 12 year old nieces stomach and the other covering my eyes.....Then Mehle says "OH MY GOD!! IT'S MICHAEL MYERS!! RUUUUUUUN!!" So naturally I look up and to my left he is just sitting there on the edge of his bed....he jumps up and stabs the wall between me and my tour guide (my niece who I'm squeezing the life out of) and I scream (like the lady that I am) "I think I just peed my pants a little!!!" And I was outta there.

9. I'm deathly terrified of heights. I went to Las Vegas with a friend of mine when we were 16 and her parents wanted to eat in the Stratosphere thing.....Well the restaurant spins on the outer edge but because I'm such a wiener we had to sit on the part that DOESN'T spin....away from the beautiful view of the city of lights. Thank GOD THE ROLLERCOASTER WASN'T WORKING THAT NIGHT!!

10. When I get upset or feel let down I shut off ways of communicating from other people. Because my feelings get hurt so easily, and I avoid confrontation...for example: it's easier for me to delete my MySpace and say "To hell with you." I don't completely cut them out of my life but I like to think they miss talking to me. Or when the whole thing with Stupid Boy was going on I was very anxious to move away. I thought that it was perfect timing for a fresh start...and maybe, just maybe, he'd miss me a little.

Friday...

2009-10-06T14:18:00.000-07:00

To My imaginary Boyfriend,

I am so VERY SORRY that I will miss your show on Friday night. Please, please remember, though, that I do love you. And with all my heart I'm sad I didn't get to hear you sing to me.

Love,

Lauren

Bart Crow is playing at a local bar here on Friday night and I'll be on the road to my niece's birthday party so I will not be able to go watch him.

I always call him my boyfriend. I think he will be someday. He loves me. He just doesn't know it yet :)

How can you NOT love a guy that writes/sings lyrics like this:

I can feel your heartbeat when your lying by my side

I can see forever when I look into your eyes

Each day beside you, girl you take my breath away

Right here in your arms is where I wanna stay

It's the way that you look girl

When you're reading late at night

It's the way that your body feels

When you're lying by my side

A love like ours, it can't be built in a million dreams

It's just you and me and girl, you're all I need

Watching you walk in yeah,

you're dancing through my world

Got your heart in my hands 'cause you're Daddy's little girl

Baby, I've loved you from our very first hello

At first, you stole my heart, baby, here's my soul

I never knew love could be so sweet

I never knew, girl, that you could love me

But I'll spend each day just to make your dreams come true'

Cause it's just you and me Baby, it's me and you

It's just you and me, baby

It's you and me, darlin'

its you and me and girl your all i need.

Unrequited Love:

2009-10-06T14:13:00.000-07:00

I watched The Holiday this weekend. Kate Winslet (love her) plays Iris, an over worked underappreciated woman with the kindest heart.

She had a monologue that stuck out to me. I truly love these words. I love how she says them. I love what they mean. But I don't LOVE that I find myself relating to them so easily. All the same, though, they hit close to home. And I just want to give her a hug. Because I know. I know how she feels.

"I've found almost everything ever written about love to be true. Shakespeare said "Journeys end in lovers meeting." What an extraordinary thought. Personally, I have not experienced anything remotely close to that, but I am more than willing to believe Shakespeare had. I suppose I think about love more than anyone really should. I am constantly amazed by its sheer power to alter and define our lives. It was Shakespeare who also said "love is blind". Now that is something I know to be true. For some, quite inexplicably, love fades; for others love is simply lost. But then of course love can also be found, even if just for the night. And then, there's another kind of love: the cruelest kind. The one that almost kills its victims. Its called unrequited love. Of that I am an expert. Most love stories are about people who fall in love with each other. But what about the rest of us? What about our stories, those of us who fall in love alone? We are the victims of the one sided affair. We are the cursed of the loved ones. We are the unloved ones, the walking wounded. The handicapped without the advantage of a great parking space! Yes, you are looking at one such individual. And I have willingly loved that man for over three miserable years! The absolute worst years of my life! The worst Christmas', the worst Birthday's, New Years Eve's brought in by tears and valium. These years that I have been in love have been the darkest days of my life. All because I've been cursed by being in love with a man who does not and will not love me back. Oh god, just the sight of him! Heart pounding! Throat thickening! Absolutely can't swallow! All the usual symptoms."
***Sigh

Juno

2009-10-05T14:55:00.000-07:00

"Look, in my opinion, the best thing you can do is find a person who loves you for exactly what you are. Good mood, bad mood, ugly, pretty, handsome, what have you, the right person is still going to think the sun shines out your ass. That's the kind of person that's worth sticking with."
**from the movie Juno

Happy Monday Darlings :)

2009-10-05T04:54:00.000-07:00

I woke up refreshed today!!

That's RARE for me on a Monday.

I haven't made it to to work yet so we'll see how the day plays out :)

I hope you all have a beautiful start to the week!!

Dear Future Husband,

2009-10-02T09:29:00.000-07:00

I have been waiting ever-so-patiently for you! I can't wait to be yours! I promise to cherish every moment we have together. I promise I'll learn how to cook so well that you would rather eat what I cook than go out all the time. I promise I'll learn to love the things that you love. I promise I'll always let you hold my hand, or me, anywhere, anytime, because I'm YOUR girl and I want the whole world to know. I promise to sing to you when you're sad...not because I sing well, but because the very sound of my awful voice will cheer you up.
I can't wait to have a home together. It will be a place that's all ours and we can live however we want in it. We can cook breakfast together in our undies and slow dance in the middle of the living room. We can drink sweet tea on the porch in the evenings, and watch our children grow up.
I promise to always be there for you. Happy, sad, good, bad.. I'll be right by your side. I promise that you'll be my best friend. I promise I won't keep any secrets from you. I promise that I will look forward to coming home from work, just so that I can sit in your lap and ask you about your day. I will never nag you about leaving the toilet seat up.
I will always ask you what you think. Sometimes it can be a bit annoying but it's just something I do. And I have a hard time keeping up with my laundry. I will let it pile up for a week and wear everything in my closet before I start putting it in the wash. I get my feelings hurt too easily. And when that happens I will most likely argue with you or cry. But I promise to always see both sides of the situation. I'm never afraid to admit when I'm wrong.
I promise that I will tell you all the time how much you mean to me, because, Dear Husband, you are my whole heart...and I have waited my whole life for a love like ours.

Always,
Lauren

The Waderator and T-rex

2009-09-23T14:22:00.000-07:00

He's very particular about his dinosaurs.

To the rescue!!

2009-09-23T13:57:00.000-07:00

Mehle, Marianne, And Mickers are coming to my office on Tuesday the 29th to donate blood!!
It means allot to me that I could ask you guys and there was no hesitation!!
You just said "sign me up!"
and that I did :)

Thank you so much!!

Don't let the bed bugs bite :(

2009-09-23T13:51:00.000-07:00

I had a pretty uneventful weekend.
So uneventful in fact that I had no bother for matching my clothes or wearing make-up.
Sister and I watched movies all weekend.
That's about it.
Mehle and I watched Criminal Minds all day Sunday!

Back to back episodes of a show about the Behavioral Analysis Unit in Quantico, Virginia.
This show is special to us because Sister is studying to do just that!
And at one point I was as well.
If you aren't sure what the BAU is...it's a unit in the FBI set up for criminal profiling. These people are able to go to a murder scene and set up a profile of the killer based on how the murder happened and determine approximate categories the suspect would fit. Such as age range, height, what kind of car, what their living arrangements are, marital status...and so on. Which really narrows down the possible suspects!
It is incredibly fascinating but can get pretty gory. I had a hard time sleeping last night so about 3 a.m I woke up and picked up my little snuggle buddy, Tanner, and crawled in bed with sister.

Mehle,

Thanks for not kicking me out of your bed this morning :) Surprise slumber parties are my specialty!!
Love, Lauren

THIS IS A SMILE INSPIRED DAY :)

2009-09-19T09:28:00.000-07:00

((don't you love our bathroom picture?))

To: Mickey
From: Lauren & Charlie Chaplin

Smile though your heart is aching;
Smile even though it's breaking.
When there are clouds in the sky, you'll get by.
If you smile through your fear and sorrow,
Smile and maybe tomorrow,
You'll see the sun come shining through for you.

Light up your face with gladness,
Hide every trace of sadness.
Although a tear may be ever so near,
That's the time you must keep on trying,
Smile, what's the use of crying?
You'll find that life is still worthwhile,
If you just smile.
That's the time you must keep on trying,
Smile, what's the use of crying?
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just smile.

Music written by Charlie Chaplin, 1936

happy WeEkEnD sWEET bABIES!!

2009-09-19T09:27:00.000-07:00

I stopped at the gas station this morning and got a pop for breakfast..
((because I'm healthy like that))
And As I turned around there was a man standing behind me waiting his turn in line and I made eye contact with him briefly but he was just smiling.
Smiling.
For no reason obvious to me...
Smiling ear to ear.
And this may be odd...
But his smile was b-e-a-u-t-I-f-u-l.
The most beautiful smile I'd ever seen!
It was such a pretty smile it made me freeze.
I froze there.
Just looking at him.
.........still standing like a statue...
Then I snapped and remembered I'm not the only person on the planet aware of odd behavior.
So I walked past this lovely man and his breathtaking smile and got in my car and drove away.
But I am very affected by the power his sweet smile had over me.
It's hard to explain I suppose.
But bless that beautiful man and his inspiring smile.
I hope I remember that face all day long!

playing with ROLLIP.com :)

2009-09-15T14:16:00.001-07:00

Matthew Gray Gubler

2009-09-15T13:55:00.000-07:00

He's done some modeling for Tommy Hilfiger but right now stars as the GENIUS Dr. Reid in Criminal Minds.
That's when I knew I loved him.
**swoon**

Just HAD to stake my claim.
Mine!

I've been missing you!!

2009-09-08T21:22:00.000-07:00

I haven't blogged in a few minutes so here I am.
Sadly, I don't have much to report back on the excitement of life...
But I am happy to share pictures of my cousin Brittney's baby!!
I was blessed to have received a visit from My Aunt Brandi (I just call her Aunt B) and Brittney and baby Bella on Saturday!!
And man do I have baby fever!!
***insert appropriate "Uh-Oh" here***
She is such a doll! So sweet and snuggly!!

Things I will always wonder:

2009-08-21T10:20:00.000-07:00

The list could go on and on....

-why the underwire on the right side of all my bras ALWAYS pops out!
-why the truth is so hard to find
-what really happens to all the "wishes" thrown into fountains and wishing wells
-why siblings argue so much
-why can't I win the lottery!!
-why I'm so hard-headed
-why I can't keep my room clean.
-why I'm such a sucker for love
-why I NEVER have ENOUGH money
-why Sister is SO pessimistic
-why, when I'm so unhappy about my weight, I don't do anything to change it
-why I find myself constantly walking on eggshells for people
-why my dreams had to be put on hold
-why people cheat
-why people are so racist
-why I couldn't ever make my Dad proud of me
-why my mom always was [[proud of me]]
-why some girls are so bitchy
-why music and dancing makes me feel so much better
-why movies suck me in so much
-why bad things happen in 3's
-how someone could marry for money instead of true love
-why celebrities gripe so much about "fame"
-where patience comes from
-how people who drive brand new cars still manage to be on food stamps
-how I accrued so much debt and have nothing to show for it

Happiness is....

2009-08-21T10:14:00.000-07:00

(in no particular order)
1. Falling in love.

2. Laughing so hard your face hurts.

3. A hot shower.

4. No lines at the supermarket.

5. A special glance.

6. Getting mail. (REAL SNAIL MAIL)

7. Taking a drive on a pretty road.

8. Hearing your favorite song on the radio.

9. Lying in bed listening to the rain outside.

10. Hot towels fresh out of the dryer.

11. Chocolate milkshake ... (or vanilla ... or strawberry!)

12. A bubble bath.

13. Giggling.

14. A good conversation.

15. The beach

16. Finding a $20 in your coat from last winter.

17. Laughing at yourself.

18. Eye contact with a hot member of the opposite sex.

19. Midnight phone calls that last for hours.

20. Running through sprinklers.

21. Laughing for absolutely no reason at all.

22. Having someone tell you that you're beautiful/good looking.

23. Laughing at an inside joke.

24. Friends.

25. Accidentally overhearing someone say something nice about you.

26. Waking up and realizing you still have a few hours left to sleep.

27. Your first kiss (either the very first or with a new partner).

28. Making new friends or spending time with old ones.

29. Playing with a new puppy.

30. Having someone play with your hair.

31. Sweet dreams.

32. Hot chocolate.

33. Road trips with friends!!!!

34. Swinging on swings.

35. Making eye contact with a cute stranger.

36. Making chocolate chip cookies (and eating them...!).

37. Faith in all things good

38. Holding hands with someone you care about.

39. Running into an old friend and realizing that some things (good or bad) never change.

40. Watching the expression on someone's face as they open a much-desired present from you. 41. Watching the sunset.

42. Getting out of bed every morning and being grateful for another beautiful day.

43. Knowing that somebody misses you.

44. Getting a hug from someone you care about deeply.

45. Knowing you've done the right thing, no matter what other people think.

la-la-la-love

2009-08-13T13:54:00.000-07:00

here are some spectacular love quotes from movies:

When you love someone,And you love them with your heart,It never disappears,When you're apart.And when you love someone, And you've done all you can do,You set them free,And if that love was true...When you love someone, It will all come back to you.
-- Forget Paris

A heart can be broken; but it keeps beating just the same.
-- Fried Green Tomatoes

It doesn't matter if the guy is perfect or the girl is perfect, as long as they are perfect for each other.
-- Good Will Hunting

We should be lovers, and that's a fact.
-- Moulin Rouge

I'm just a girl, standing in front of a boy, asking him to love her.
-- Notting Hill

I love that you get cold when it is 71 degrees out. I love that it takes you an hour and a half to order a sandwich. I love that you get a little crinkle in your nose when you're looking at me like I'm nuts. I love that after I spend day with you, I can still smell your perfume on my clothes. And I love that you are the last person I want to talk to before I go to sleep at night. And it's not because I'm lonely, and it's not because it's New Year's Eve. I came here tonight because when you realize you want to spend the rest of your life with somebody, you want the rest of your life to start as soon as possible.
-- When Harry Met Sally

I would rather have had one breath of her hair, one kiss from her mouth, one touch of her hand, than eternity without it. One.
--City of Angels

Look, I guarantee there'll be tough times. I guarantee that at some time, one or both of us is gonna want to get out of this thing. But I also guarantee that if I don't ask you to be mine, I'll regret it for the rest of my life, because I know, in my heart, you're the only one for me.
--Runaway Bride

"Take love, multiply it by infinity and take it to the depths of forever.. and you still have only a glimpse of how I feel for you."
-- Meet Joe Black

Do you ever put your arms out and just spin and spin and spin? Well, that's what love is like. Everything inside of you tells you to stop before you fall, but you just keep going."
-- Practical Magic

If you love someone you say it, you say it right then, out loud. Otherwise the moment just... passes you by...
--My Best friend's Wedding

Don't say we aren't right for each other, the way i see it is.. we aren't right for anyone else
--the cutting edge

The truth is...I gave my heart away a long time ago, my whole heart...and I never really got it back.
--Sweet Home Alabama

That's my sweetheart in there. Wherever she is, that's where my home is.
-- The Notebook

"Even more, I had never meant to love him. One thing I truly knew - knew it in the pit of my stomach, in the center of my bones, knew it from the crown of my head to the soles of my feet, knew it deep in my empty chest - was how love gave someone the power to break you. I'd been broken beyond repair."
--Twilight

"I am no one special, just a common man with common thoughts. I've led a common life. There are no monuments dedicated to me, and my name will soon be forgotten. But in one respect, I've succeeded as gloriously as anyone who ever lived. I've loved another with all my heart and soul, and for me, that has always been enough."
--The Notebook

"I think I'd miss you even if we had never met"
--The Wedding Date

k.a.r.m.a

2009-08-13T13:52:00.000-07:00

Karma - is the concept of "action" or "deed" in Indian religions understood as that which causes the entire cycle of cause and effect.In these systems, the effects of all deeds are viewed as actively shaping past, present, and future experiences.

So....
Sister and I meet up for a fattening lunch at Chili's
And I decide to order a coke (which usually doesn't happen. I get water at restaurants)
And after the waitress takes our order......
I got bored waiting so I decided to read the list of yummy-can't have me-because I contain ALCOHOL and you're on your work break-list.
Knowing I cannot have the drinks on that particular list I still for some reason excitedly rush over and grab it...
While doing so my glass of coke explodes.
Ok. Fine.
It didn't explode.
I knocked it over with my enthusiastic reach.
Whatever.
Not a drop goes on me. (yay! I'm wearing a yellow shirt)
But...It does happen to go allover Sister.
Ahhhh!!
Sister is very very MAD.
I said sorry a bazillion times and used about 800 napkins to clean it up.
Sister reminds me throughout the whole meal that she's got coke in her crack.
To which I laugh.
Then she gets mad allover again.
"I'm soooo sorry!! It was an accident!!"
Sister replies: "According to Freud, there are NO ACCIDENTS."
So what are you saying?? I WANTED to throw myself into the flames of hell??
Psssh.
NEVER do THAT on purpose.

Well here's where Sister's day got better:
I've just parked back at work and I'm reaching over the console of my truck to put my work shoes back on..(I always switch to flops at lunch)...and look down to see that I have ACCIDENTALLY squished my chocolate shake into my yellow shirt.

Sister laughed REAL hard.
I didn't think it was "so" funny.

And that my friends...is KARMA.

i want to learn more!!

2009-08-11T14:37:00.000-07:00

I la-la-la-love to bake.
My specialty is cupcakes! YUM!
My favorite part is decorating them!
I'm no Betty Crocker but it's pretty fun.
This is a cake I made for my a Halloween/birthday party we had last year and it was so fun!

And my next project is Hello Kitty!! Like the one I found on www.coolest-birthday-cakes.com!!
So CUTE!!

today.is.a.slow.day.

2009-08-06T10:52:00.000-07:00

I'm just hanging out at work.

Waiting for the clock to show 5:00 p.m.

Will this day EVER end??

It's not a BAD day but I'm off tomorrow!! ((Yay)) So I'm terribly excited to get my weekend started! Plus I have a 4 1/2 hour drive ahead of me tonight. boogers.

Mehle, Me, and Nicole are headed to Tasha's house for the weekend!! We always have SO MUCH FUN. We swim and watch movies and just laugh our tooters off!!

May your weekend be as joyous as mine!!

My sweet baby brother!

2009-08-06T10:47:00.000-07:00

His name is Wade.

I call him "The Wader-ator"

He's so precious.

*image via www.photosbyjenniferhenderson.com

THAT was a TOP NIGHT!!

2009-08-06T10:30:00.000-07:00

The ladies and I went to a bar downtown on Saturday night. The bar is called “Odds” and it is the only bar here in Wichita that has its very own Drag shows!! I must say…it was one of my favorite nights out!!
We drank
We danced
We laughed
We had a blasty blast!!
It was definitely an experience I won’t forget! Here are a few pix!

Nicole, “tiffany Adams”, and My sister Mehle. Great wig, huh?

The twins (Marianne and Mickey) enjoying a little “suck and blow” haha!

This was before we left the house. Nicole, Me, Mehle.

I forget this one’s name but she wasn’t as nice as the other two.

Mehle and “Tiffany.” My favorite!!

I have terrible aim!! I'm sorry I cut off your face, Nicole!!

beautiful

2009-08-06T10:24:00.000-07:00

I love this girls style!
Dita. Von. Teese.
Beautiful.
The skin of an angel.
And the body of a goddess!!

AH-MAZING!!!

She’s a bit risqué’ for my normal tastes but isn't she lovely?? She does her own burlesque shows. How SEXY is that???

She's done it again

2009-07-29T17:37:00.000-07:00

My sweet Micaela (it’s Mickerz to me) has tagged me in another blog! This blog is where I must find 10 things about myself that most people may not know. I had a tough time with this one because I feel I’m pretty open about most things, sometimes I think I’m a little too expressive, but hopefully (to Mickerz, Marianne, Amber, and Tasha) these are things you don’t know about me!

When I yawn I speak gibberish. I don’t know what I’m saying but I feel it makes the yawn more enjoyable so I just let it come out.

When I pass a cemetery I always hold my breath. And I try to impose this superstition on everyone in the car. I’ve done it since I can remember.

I’m a strong believer in the “happily-ever-after” theory. And I know I will get one....even though i pretend to have given up.

I pick up my feet off the floorboard of the vehicle anytime we go over a body of water.

I put too much faith/trust in something before I know what could or could NOT happen...and i SHOULD know better by now but I don't. I keep on doing it.

I really hate chicken noodle soup and green beans.

I could look at impressionist paintings all day everyday. I find the texture beautiful. No lines. Just colors. They amaze me.

The bigger the vehicle, the better I drive it.

I could spend hours in a Disney Store. Kids stuff, yes...but very worth my time!

When I'm singing in the car I have no concern of the people watching. I guess in my head I'm in a little bubble that they can't see and I just rock out. All the time.

to live in the hearts we leave behind...

2009-07-23T14:23:00.000-07:00

Remembrance is a golden chain Death tries to break,but all in vain.To have, to love, and then to part Is the greatest sorrow of one's heart. The years may wipe out many things But some they wipe out never. Like memories of those happy times When we were all together.

~ Author Unknown

My "bucket" list

2009-07-23T14:19:00.000-07:00

Comes from the saying "to kick the bucket."
a list of things to do before you kick the bucket, i.e., a list of things to do before you die.

What a hard task. As I’m sure all of you will agree it’s not something easily thought of in a short amount of time, nor is it something that will be completed (as in, you’ll ALWAYS find new things to add to it). These things just came to me quickly so I will guarantee it’s not my completed list.

In no particular order…..

Find something I love to do, and do it well.
Have a garden with vegetables I grew with my own hands.
Find the LOVE of my life. That “ridiculous, time-consuming, can’t live without each other love”
Travel. Just pick up one day and sail away. Back pack through Europe. See things I’ve only seen in pictures.
Be in two places at once.
I would like to try Zip lining in the jungle somewhere.
Jump off a waterfall
Learn to sew better and make a quilt.
Learn to play the piano
Learn to play the guitar (again)
Learn to be fluent in French or Italian.
Hug a giant Redwood tree
Finish college
watch a sunset on the BEACH
Go to Disneyworld!!
Learn how to keep up the work on a farm
paint again
hug a baby zebra!
Ride in a gondola down the canals of Venice under a full moon with my love by my side
To take part in a burlesque show ;)
drive a monster truck
be a mommy
get closer to God.
right the wrongs in my life
fly a plane
run everyday
make a British guard crack a smile
catch a fish with my bare hands ( Blue lagoon style!)
be a beautiful photographer
do yoga

Well that’s all I can think of at the moment!! I’m sure I’ll have more. I could go on and on forever!

What’s on your “Bucket List?”

always.

2009-07-14T14:47:00.001-07:00

Do not give up. Do not fall into isolation and despair. When you run into people who treat you badly, don't panic. If you're willing to get back up and keep looking for help and support, you're going to find it. You may not get a hundred percent of what you deserve, but you will find people who will listen. You will find people who will stand at your side, and people who will fight for your rights. And in the process of carrying out your own fight for justice and support, you'll also be making it that much better for the women who come after you, just as thousands of women have done before you.

I am here for you. Forever. I’m so sorry this happened to you. You are my life and I will do anything in my power to help you through this.

All my love.

the weekend is here!!

2009-06-13T07:09:00.001-07:00

Have a B-E-A-U-T-I-F-U-L weekend sweet girls!!

I'm so excited about seeing my BIGlilSISTER!!

She is on her way to Wichita Falls as I type :)

We have lots of catching up to do!!

And I want everyone to come over and meet her! haha

But if you can't...I understand.....

More of her for ME!

"Laughter is god's sunshine."

Bravery!

2009-06-11T14:54:00.000-07:00

I was once told by *a boy* that if we were to be together there would be a few things he needed me to “alter”
Here was his list:
Stop Smoking
Keep your room clean.
Learn to cook a wider range of food.

While I agree wholeheartedly with that list…was it the deal-breaker? No, no. I know it wasn’t but is that what you are to do before entering into a relationship? Make a list of “buts…..” like “I want to be with you BUT………..”

How did I miss this??
Well here I am. Writing to whomever can READ saying “HERE are SOME (only SOME) of my flaws.”
I’m putting it out there!

1.I cannot keep my room clean. At all. For more than 2-3 days. While I don’t have food/drinks anywhere fermenting on the dresser or nightstand, I do have clothes up to my knees in the FLOOR. It’s always been this way for me. Mom tried to break me of this flaw but it never took. I’m going to have to be honest and say that I don’t think I’ll EVER be able to budge on this one.

2.I smoke. I have for 5 years. I’m not proud of it but sometimes it eases minor imperfections throughout my day and I like it. I do plan to quit someday. Just not today.

3.I only do my laundry about once a week.

4.I love all kinds of animals…but I will not have another furry/pooping/peeing thing in my home again. I can budge on a fish…but that’s about it. I don’t like hair allover the place. It makes me completely INSANE.

5.I’m hard-headed like no one you’ll EVER meet. I don’t think I’m RIGHT all the time….but I’ll argue with you until I’m blue in the face.

6.Don’t EVER expect me to clean or cook on a Monday after 8 hours of work. I just can’t do it. For some reason I’m like a zombie. It’s nothing I can prevent. I just absolutely hate to get off work on Mondays and do something productive. HATE IT.

7.I can’t for the life of me find ONE talent that I have. I am just a plain ole girl with loads of time and no talent to spend it on. I'm not exceptionally good at one thing. Guitar, flute, drawing, doing hair, academics, snowboarding, dancing. I’m average at all of that. Just average.

8.I trust too easily (I know this can be beneficial) but not in my case. I’m very passive aggressive with most things.

9.I will always be a little bit fat. Always.

10.Sometimes I get jealous. For all the wrong reasons.

This makes me think of Bridget Jones when she’s breaking up with Mark.
She put it all out there!!
And she did it face-to-face!
That’s what I call brave!

Bridget Jones: I read that you should never go out with someone if you can think of three reasons why you shouldn't.
Mark Darcy: And can you think of three?
Bridget Jones: Yes.
Mark Darcy: Which are?
Bridget Jones: First off, I embarrass you. I can't ski, I can't ride, I can't speak Latin , my legs only come up to here and yes I will always be just a little bit fat. And you, you fold your underpants before you go to bed!
Mark Darcy: No, hang on! That-that can't be a reason.
Bridget Jones: No, it's not a reason! But you're not perfect either! You look down your nose at absolutely everyone and you're incapable of doing anything spontaneous or potentially affectionate.

Mon Coeur/My Heart

2009-06-11T14:42:00.001-07:00

I was “tagged” to play.
So here’s how it goes:

instructions: "with as much creativity as you can muster, show your heart in: a picture, a poem, a song (or piece of music), a phrase (or quote), an item of clothing, a place, and (just for fun) a Disney princess."

Mon Coeur.

A picture:

A poem:

Sonnet 17 of Neruda’s 100 Love Sonnets
Translated by Stephen Tapscott.

I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where.I love you straightforwardly, without complexities or pride;so I love you because I know no other waythan this: where I does not exist, nor you,so close that your hand on my chest is my hand,so close that your eyes close as I fall asleep.

A song:
And because my Momma sang this to my sisters and I into a banana on top of the kitchen table…
Bon Jovi- I’ll Be There For You

I'll be there for youThese five words I swear to youWhen you breathe I want to be the air for youI'll be there for youI'd live and I'd die for youSteal the sun from the sky for youWords can't say what a love can doI'll be there for you

A quote:
To laugh often and much; to win the respect of intelligent people and the affection of children...to leave the world a better place...to know even one life has breathed easier because you have lived. This is to have succeeded.

An item of clothing:
I’m such a weirdo. But I ALWAYS have to have a white tank top! All alone or under something. You can’t imagine how many of these I own!!

A place:
I want to be with my Momma again. All of us girls. Momma and my sisters. I know I will see her someday. I just really miss her.

And a Disney Princess:
Duh! Cinderella!!

good one.

2009-06-09T14:03:00.000-07:00

"Watching you walk out of my life does not make me bitter or cynical about love. But rather makes me realize that if I wanted so much to be with the wrong person how beautiful it will be when the right one comes along."

TEAM AIDEN!

2009-06-09T13:57:00.000-07:00

Now before you start throwing things at me…
Let me make myself more clear.
I love Big.
But Aiden is the PERFECT guy.
He is so forgiving, loving, and understanding. I almost wish that they had gone ahead and gotten “Maui-ed”
But then it might have fallen apart after awhile because I really don’t think it was in her heart. And actually Aiden had some underlying issues with it as well. “I can’t marry you so that you’ll trust me”
Oh but they were wonderful together.

My loves (Marianne and Mickerz) and I watched a handful of Sex and The City last night and it was good fun!
I must admit that I myself have watched the entire series 4 times start to finish but I could watch it over and over again!
Me and previously mentioned Loves picked a select few that we could find relatable and just sat and soaked them up.
“just one more, just one more”
Midnight came around and I was like a zombie but it was worth the time I got to spend with my M&M’s. haha.

memories last forever :)

2009-06-09T13:54:00.000-07:00

I finally watched it.

Thanks to Mickerz.

I loved it.
Of course I argued with the whole movie but when I put my hard-headed thoughts aside I can see why what happens, happens.
I love Hubble.
I love K-k-k-katie.

This is going to be one of those movies I want to watch over and over again mostly because I’m hoping it will end the way I want it to.
Do you ever do that?
I know it’s NOT going to change the more I watch it but I still have that tiny feeling of hope that it could go differently.

To Tasha and Mehle

2009-06-05T14:37:00.000-07:00

How do people make it through life without a sister??

I was blessed with 2 very honest and loving BIG sisters.

(Although by big I just mean older…I’m TALLER than BOTH of them)

So I shall refer to them as my little big sisters!

Through ups and downs and happy and sad…. They’ve ALWAYS been on my side and there to help me through it all. Sometimes we disagree but that comes with the territory of being sisters. And we ALWAYS have a charming way of getting past whatever silly little argument we just had. It’s comforting to me because a sister is a forever friend and I was lucky enough to get 2!

All I can hope is that I can be as good of a sister to them as they are to me.

Mehle, I am sorry I threw my Barbie at your face and gave you a black eye when you yelled at me for not helping you clean our room! I haven’t changed much, huh? At least now when you want me to help you clean I’m not launching things at your head!!

Tasha, I’m sorry I always snuck into your room and put on your fake nails when you weren’t home. I didn’t mean to always USE them all. IT just so happened I required a little more practice putting them on than you did!

I’m proud of the relationships that we have with each other. And I know Momma is smiling down from heaven and saying “thank god they finally see!”

You two are a little bit of my childhood that can never be lost.

My sisters, My heart.

VERY useful

2009-06-03T14:52:00.000-07:00

I am in love with my little Wacky-Pack toy
I went to SONIC at lunch today and got a kids meal and root beer..
YUM.

And to my complete DELIGHT ...

My “Bug Observer” haha.
I’m exited about it.

Of course I understand if you didn’t get what it was until I told you.
I had to read the little paper in the package to determine it’s uses.
And, sadly, I’m supposed to have the “Bug Catcher” first….
But I can find me a lil ladybug to rent this place out to.

How cute.
Again….it’s the little things in life……

Give ME MORE

2009-06-03T14:45:00.001-07:00

I’ve been listening to my Brazos Stone CD all day.
I’m in love with this band.
The music.
The Lyrics.
The band members….

I must admit that Bridget “Mingo” Briles (fiddle and backup vocals) is my all time biggest girl crush.
I said it.
She makes me SMILE REAL BIG.

The CD includes 10 tracks.
Here are some of my FAVORITE lyrics from the CD:

Track 1
Pleasurable Pain
“Somewhere the sun must shine, that’s where I’m pinin’ to go. Cause maybe a beam will get through my dark sky. When it’ll shine, God only knows”

Track 2
Like You Did
“I don’t know what you been doin, or where on earth ya’ been, But I’m not chasin’….chasin you around again.”

Track 3
Close Distance
“I need you here, at my fingertips. I need you here, within whispers from my lips. I need you here, but not every instance. I need you here…At a close distance”

Track 4
Brazos Breeze
“I couldn’t forgive your past, however hard I tried”

Track 5
Regret-this one is the best (in my opinion)
“Missing you was all I did wrong, wishing someday you’d come along”

Track 6
Sweet Marie
“I don’t know what it is about her, I can’t stand to be without her. If time stood still when we’re together, the lake would be right no matter the weather.”

Track 7
The Other Three
“One’s still burnin in my soul, one you know I’d like to meet. One I’m runnin from. One’s a face unseen, the Lord, the law, John Wayne, and Jim Beam.”

Track 8
Beginning of the End
“A diamond makes it all stone, the stone makes her your own. They say diamonds are a girl’s best friend, I say I diamond’s the beginning of the end.”

Track 9
Queen of Diamonds
“Ya think you got everyone fooled. People hear what’s said and see what we do. Seein is believing baby and I believe we’re through.”

Track 10
Flight of an Angel
“I know God needs angels like you, Oh but I need you too. The time has come or so it seems, to lay down your wings”

Now I know this blog is kind of long but oh so worth your time [[hopefully]]

“So take the good with the bad.
Smile when you’re sad.
Remember what you had.
Oh but love what you HAVE”

the curious case

2009-06-02T10:05:00.001-07:00

of Benjamin button.
FANTASTIC movie.
I was thinking of this movie when I woke up and took little Tanner outside this morning.
It was thundering and lightening and I thought of that old man (Mr.. Daws)
who always says:
"Did I ever tell you I've been struck by lightning 7 times?"
These are the ones I remember.....

"Once when I was in the field, just tending to my cows."
"Once when I was just sittin' in my truck just minding my own business."
"Once when I was repairing a leak on the roof."
"Once I was just crossing the road to get the mail."
"Once, I was walking my dog down the road."

Later on in the movie he says
"Blinded in one eye; can't hardly hear. I get twitches and shakes out of nowhere; always losing my line of thought. But you know what? God keeps reminding me I'm lucky to be alive."

And the best best best quote from the movie:
Benjamin Said;

"For what it's worth: it's never too late or, in my case, too early to be whoever you want to be. There's no time limit, start whenever you want. You can change or stay the same, there are no rules to this thing. We can make the best or the worst of it. I hope you make the best of it. I hope you see things that startle you. I hope you feel things you never felt before. I hope you meet people who have a different point of view. I hope you live a life you're proud of, and if you find that you're not, I hope you have the strength to start all over again."

I can't even begin....

2009-05-31T20:33:00.000-07:00

to explain how excited I am for this movie.
These books excite me to my CORE!!
Call me mainstream...But it's the little things in life....right?
here you go lovies....

THE TWILIGHT SAGA: NEW MOON trailer in HD

Do you LOVE it??

Good way to Describe it

2009-05-29T15:21:00.000-07:00

From the movie Captain Corelli's Mandolin:

"Love is a temporary madness. It erupts like an earthquake and then subsides. And when it subsides you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots have become so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part. Because this is what love is. Love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the promulgation of promises of eternal passion. That is just being "in love" which any of us can convince ourselves we are.

Love itself is what is left over when being in love has burned away, and this is both an art and a fortunate accident. Your mother and I had it, we had roots that grew towards each other underground, and when all the pretty blossom had fallen from our branches we found that we were one tree and not two."
- Captain Corelli's Mandolin.
"Love is the beauty of the soul." --St. Augustine

It makes me smile REAL big.

2009-05-29T15:15:00.000-07:00

I love to look at street ART.

I Google it all the time just to see if there are ANY NEW ones that I might like.

My favorite so far is Bansky.

Very original and creative.

I wish I had a specific talent. I’ve tried and tried to think of what I’m really good at.....

and I got nothing.
I'm a dud.
Sorry Mom and Dad.

Ha!

My thoughts exactly...

2009-05-28T17:39:00.000-07:00

I coulnd't agree more with this list. I adore this picture. How true is it?? I"m going to add some more to it though....

-the way i feel when i see [[him]]
-how all my worries melt away when i'm simply in .....a hammock
-my dad's hard-headedness (i know it's not a word)
-the uncontrollable"dance fits" that erupt when i hear just the right song :)
-tanner's warmth when he snuggles with me (tanner is the dog)
-how my heart warms when my little niece says my name "Wawen"
-the flutter in my stomach when i feel hopeful
-how proud I am of Mehle. (my sister.....May-Lee)

Those are just a few of mine. I'm a huge huge fan of post secret so I'll be putting quite a few on here. They give me relief mostly. That sometimes I'm not the only one. And sometimes they kind of scare me(HA!). And sometimes i just think they are beautiful!!

you have to start somewhere

2009-05-28T17:36:00.000-07:00

This is my somewhere.

My name is lauren.

I'm new so be nice!!

I'm not going to go on and on about myself.

I figure if you want to know things...

You'll figure me out through my posts.

Be patient, though.

I'm still trying to figure it all out!